Today's post is actually yesterday's post. What a beautiful sunday it was. Actually, what a beautiful life it is. I feel so grateful to have something that I hold so dear to me that everytime I think of not having it, it makes me even more grateful for the fact that I have it - finally. What is it you ask? It is the complete & unabashed permission to be me - all my quirks, all my imperfections to be able to share my insecurities with someone.
Yesterday, as happens at times, we were stuck in a wait for the car to be loaded on to the ferry for a little over 2 hours & while we were sitting there, initially, smug in the back of a chauffeur driven, air conditioned Fortuner, wondering, how this could be happening to us, how we did not take the right decision & how it had come to this huge time delay of just sitting there & not being able to do anything about it, a little while later, both of us adults, got into what we do best - him working on the side, me immersing myself in reading my book on the borrowed (now mine) kindle.
The car eventually got loaded on to the ferry & he continued to be on the pre-scheduled call & I stood there at the edge of the ferry, looking at the vast expanse of the ocean wondering to myself how I felt so happy, so content, so grateful & so much at peace with where I am at. A smile spread across my face & I made a mental note to myself that I must pen this down tomorrow before the memory fleets past.
A few weeks ago, a month rather, there was an earthquake - with its tremors & aftershocks & the scare that comes with it. Existential that in that moment, I could have been swiped off the face of the earth & nothing would have mattered but then here I am living this moment, exactly where I am supposed to be, exactly what I am supposed to be doing. I am happy, I am content & I am grateful for it all.
I did go and splurge an unnecessary amount of money on diamond bangles after the earthquake even though I dint really need those bangles but because the earthquake made me feel like I can die with all the retirement funds and no life to live anymore. The earthquake also made me realize that there are all kinds of people - Roshan, who no matter what has transpired or what has brought us where we are, she will always be there - in a way, she always is. Dipanjana - who is my rock, will always be there. Pritish - can comfort me sitting miles away & he will always be there for me & above all, I have Sauraj - who is mine & I am his & that's all that matters. The hugs, the cuddles, the love, the affection - at the end of the day -it's all that matters - this safe company of this man who is far from perfect but like pieces in a puzzle, when we are together, we just fit & the world is bright & there are travel plans to be made & mountains to be scaled.
May we all have & cherish the people in our lives! <3